Where have I been? Well, out trying to actually have analog-style human contact. And working out. And going to the opera. And, sadly, still eating a lot of Korean takeout on the subway. I've been suffering from a bit of internet fatigue. My job and its distance from my home have conspired to keep me out of the kitchen. As much as I love food, I don't have the energy to chase obscure outer boro restos or cheflebrities anymore.
I started blogging in 2004 to try and get legit food writing gigs. Once I got the legit food writing gigs, the dream started fraying. I started eating crap in service of reviews I had to write. I felt the need to quantify every food experience I had because I knew I'd be expected to voice an opinion. Even my friends started worrying about what I'd think of their cooking.
And then there were the odd relationships I began to have with the people in the tiny food world. You know how it goes: a P.R. rep invites you to an event where you will be leaned upon to write about whatever is being pushed. You see all the familiar faces -- the food editors, the freelance writers, the bloggers, everyone smiling and chummy over their cocktails. This is the village it takes to create the content people want. I'm sure that the majority of those writers are able to navigate the murky waters with honor and dignity. (And I mean it -- there are lots of writers whose opinions I trust precisely because they're not scenesters and they've got the cojones to say whatever they want to say -- Robert Sietsema, Regina Schrambling and Adam Platt are just a few.) But without the protection of complete obscurity, I can't. I'm ultimately someone who wants to make other people happy. I may not have the stomach for this kind of work. While I've never been a fan of Amanda Hesser's writing, these days I can't really participate in the schadenfreude surrounding the fallout of her now infamous Spice Market review. I don't live with the illusion that writers are sequestered from the people or things they write about.
Anyway, there are so many people blogging with the kind of stamina I used to have when I had a less rigorous schedule. I can't keep up the pace, and I'm not going to try to anymore. I don't want to sell myself as an expert. I want to participate in my life more and observe less.
I've put out my fair share of negative energy over the years -- after all, the tag line for this blog was "eating and complaining in nyc". But I'm not interested in being a critic anymore. And I'm realizing that a sister just has to blog for herself, or there won't be anything to talk about.
So for starters, I finally upgraded to Movable Type 4.1. We'll see how this goes. The old system was just weighing my build time down. Of course, I really only half know what I'm doing with the tech stuff, so posting this post may entirely break my site.
And I've gone with one of MT's stable out-of-the-box templates, which I will be tweaking some as the weeks go by and I have a little more time. Again, I'm going to go at my glacial pace because I want this to be fun again.
You Are What You Eat will return sporadically, whenever I can get people to participate.
And I'll still talk about my life through my food. Maybe I just need spring to give birth to green things so I can get back into it. But I may talk about music. Or the election. Or puppies, rainbows and unicorns. I guess we'll see.
I started blogging in 2004 to try and get legit food writing gigs. Once I got the legit food writing gigs, the dream started fraying. I started eating crap in service of reviews I had to write. I felt the need to quantify every food experience I had because I knew I'd be expected to voice an opinion. Even my friends started worrying about what I'd think of their cooking.
And then there were the odd relationships I began to have with the people in the tiny food world. You know how it goes: a P.R. rep invites you to an event where you will be leaned upon to write about whatever is being pushed. You see all the familiar faces -- the food editors, the freelance writers, the bloggers, everyone smiling and chummy over their cocktails. This is the village it takes to create the content people want. I'm sure that the majority of those writers are able to navigate the murky waters with honor and dignity. (And I mean it -- there are lots of writers whose opinions I trust precisely because they're not scenesters and they've got the cojones to say whatever they want to say -- Robert Sietsema, Regina Schrambling and Adam Platt are just a few.) But without the protection of complete obscurity, I can't. I'm ultimately someone who wants to make other people happy. I may not have the stomach for this kind of work. While I've never been a fan of Amanda Hesser's writing, these days I can't really participate in the schadenfreude surrounding the fallout of her now infamous Spice Market review. I don't live with the illusion that writers are sequestered from the people or things they write about.
Anyway, there are so many people blogging with the kind of stamina I used to have when I had a less rigorous schedule. I can't keep up the pace, and I'm not going to try to anymore. I don't want to sell myself as an expert. I want to participate in my life more and observe less.
I've put out my fair share of negative energy over the years -- after all, the tag line for this blog was "eating and complaining in nyc". But I'm not interested in being a critic anymore. And I'm realizing that a sister just has to blog for herself, or there won't be anything to talk about.
So for starters, I finally upgraded to Movable Type 4.1. We'll see how this goes. The old system was just weighing my build time down. Of course, I really only half know what I'm doing with the tech stuff, so posting this post may entirely break my site.
And I've gone with one of MT's stable out-of-the-box templates, which I will be tweaking some as the weeks go by and I have a little more time. Again, I'm going to go at my glacial pace because I want this to be fun again.
You Are What You Eat will return sporadically, whenever I can get people to participate.
And I'll still talk about my life through my food. Maybe I just need spring to give birth to green things so I can get back into it. But I may talk about music. Or the election. Or puppies, rainbows and unicorns. I guess we'll see.
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